Wednesday, 14 June 2017

The Aurora

On Friday I was in Southampton on a tour of one of a P&O cruise ship, the Aurora. It was brilliant! We had a 3 course meal on there too!  That evening they were setting off on a Western Mediterranean cruise which meant that people were boarding while we were on the ship which was lovely. So it was lively, at lunch anyway! But the ship is so good for wheelchairs, though pushing myself on the thick carpet was strenuous at times and I was really glad to wheel quite harmoniously on the deck!

It was a brilliant idea to go on a tour of a Cruise Ship and one that is owed to Lucy Brown at Disability Initiative who organised the trip. Not forgetting those who came with us who made it a really joyful and interesting event for us to attend. Facilities did cater for disabled people very well, as there were lifts to each floor. The only places with steep ramps were getting into the cinema and the theatre. Other than that, everywhere was flat and very accessible.

We saw the gym, the spa, the theatre, the cinema, shops and of course all the food outlets. Someone I was with made the fair point that with so many eateries you could very easily put on weight. This is true, without a structure to your day you could very easily. But the beauty of a cruise is that you are not in the same place for more than a few days at most, and you are always moving or doing something.

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 24 May 2017

Things Take Time

Sorry I've been rubbish at this! I will try to do this every Wednesday from now on - unforeseen circumstances have been in the way recently - it's nice to get back to a bit of normality!

Things taking time is a difficult balancing act.

Particularly when you're a go-getter like me!

But after something happening you've got to take a few days to let life cool down. Let it recover. And it can feel like nothing's happening in your life but things are. Things often work behind the scenes - and just because you can't see it right now doesn't mean it isn't. You can't be out all the time, though you wish you could because you're not as young as you used to be, you don't have the same mentality as you did at uni, you get tired, so very tired and you're not used to it anymore.

And things DO change. Subtly every day. You won't even notice it. This is evident particularly when you have a baby in the family. As I do, and she is changing every day at the moment. Learning new things and finding out things about yourself is a constant and can constantly change. It might take time to see how everything has changed but the time will come. And it is fascinating to me that things are always happening, so no moment is the same and no matter what you think, change is coming. Often time it comes later rather than sooner, but it is possible.

Remember: YOU are in control of your life, so if you want something to happen you have to organise it and make it happen.

Like last week, I went swimming and floated for the first time which I'm really proud of. That is enough to take all the energy out of anyone. But then, I went to a wedding reception in the evening of the same day. It was amazing and I was so thrilled to be celebrating the wedding. That was a pretty action packed day! I loved that but I realise that I have to slow down! Or don't do too much during a day! But at least I know I can do this when needs must.

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 26 April 2017

Doing things

I've noticed that just getting on with things makes it go quicker.

So I don't put things off. If I can help it.

If it's just me in a situation I'd rather not wait.

When sorting out clothes as I have in the past week (my summer wardrobe is back!) although my arm hurt me by lifting it to put hangers on the rails, I was uplifted by the colours that are re-emerging in my wardrobe!

It's so lovely, just looking over at the clothes!

I took off the doors on my wardrobe last year because there was too much weight in there and having the doors too, meant I couldn't see what I had in terms of clothing.

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 12 April 2017

Situations

Everyone is going through situations. And they are all different.

'It seemed not so much distant as unreal.'

That defines a situation that is happening yet you are not involved in it.

It is a quote from 'Where My Heart Used To Beat' by Sebastian Faulks.

It is hard when you are not involved, to have an opinion of the situation, as you don't know everything. That's why I don't think judgements are good to make on first appearances.

Everyone has different reasons for decisions that they make.

And every situation is so different.

What occurs to anyone else you don't have a clue.

Try not to judge.

Situations are so different to everybody and depend on your perspective.

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 29 March 2017

Where I Am

I haven’t been doing this for a while and I have missed it.

I haven’t been in the right kind of headspace for a while – so apologies for the month of no videos.

A lot has been going on – both personally and in regards to my family.

I have been given more to do in regards of work and so I have to prioritise.

I will try to keep my blog on Wednesday up but it may not always be in my control. 

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 15 March 2017

I wonder...

It is fascinating to sit outside
Where i wonder at things
All the great thinkers; past or present
philosophers, authors, scientists,
Take your pick; we all live under the same sky.

I find this mind-boggling. I find it really quite powerful to think of.

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 8 March 2017

Life is undiluted

Life is undiluted. I've always liked this idea! How else would we grow if it was diluted? And who knows what the perfect, diluted situation would be in your life? I think even in a 'perfect' world we'd be waiting for it all to go wrong. Because you can't dilute reality.

We need bad stuff to happen alongside good stuff because how would we appreciate the good stuff if bad stuff didn't occur? It's all a balance and, though it's rreally hard when you're teetering on the edge of it all going wrong, things do change and get better.

Everything we do reacts with something else. My mind has to react with my hand to write this!

Wednesday, 1 March 2017

Review of LA LA Land

LA LA Land was incredible. It was really uplifting. It's a musical love story that ends up taking two different routes and I guess the viewer gets to decide the one Emma Stone follows. It just made me feel happy inside. The opening sequence is funny and just what you want to happen. You'd like to be able to do that. I would anyway! While some of the singing was a bit pitchy and random, I think the film needs to be taken for what it is - a feel-good film that is designed to make you feel good.

Wednesday, 22 February 2017

That's What I Love - stream of coinciousness

How many times have I dreamt about this? Sleeping under a bouquet of stars! They're so beautiful. Really stunning tonight. I focus on one - I don't know it's particular name, just decide it's a lucky one. It's towards the west so it's one of the last lights before the sun overrules them. It's always glorious watching the sun rise. And just that excites me as I have no idea what the day may have in store.
There are so many things that could happen. I could meet someone new, I could try a new taste and really enjoy it or stick to what I know. There are so many possibilities and no matter what I do, I won't be letting myself down. That's what I love. I'd much rather be doing something than sitting back. Sitting back entails thoughts of 'Wish I could' and anyone who knows me knows that I am a doer. I'd much rather be, than have regrets of not doing anything.

*Hey! I hope you liked that! I've been awful at posting things lately! Just had a lot going on!

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 1 February 2017

Brazen

I have started writing again! I'd just gotten so busy with work and trying to manage everything else in my life, that I just had no time left over. Creative writing that is. I do miss the time I used to be able to write article after article for a happiness blog which I used to) and write something inspirational (?) on here and still write creatively. Now I'm able to write creatively again, I feel hopeful that I can get back to writing how I used to. I also remembered something I learnt at uni. That 5 word sentences (or less) pack more of a punch. So, here we go my probably sixth attempt at trying to write this one scene called 'Brazen':

'I can't believe you,' he hissed as she held the knife over his defenceless body.
'Well, you'd better start!' she yelled back at him. How had it come to this? One second. That's all it would take.
'Get up!' she kicked his motionless legs. 'Tell me I'm crazy, tell me I'm insane!' she demanded in a voice that wasn't her own. It was much fiercer, more brazen. She didn't believe herself capable. 'Tell me anything,' she pleaded as tears stung her eyes.

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 25 January 2017

Yes You Are

V1:
Keep on shining like a star
Everyone's gonna know who you are
Cos you never gave up
When the going got tough
Keep on lighting up the dark

Chorus:
Cos you are yes you are incredible
Cos you are yes you are so beautiful
Don't you ever stop believing it's true
Cos you are yes you are amazing you

V2:
Keep on plugging away at life
Amaze people before their eyes
Cos you never gave in
When against the world you were struggling
I'm just praying that you realise
(Repeat Chorus)
M8:
Cos you are don't try to deny
The truth it's written in your eyes
You are worth so much
Don't just give it away for another's touch
Cos you are worth so much more
And you're so God damn beautiful
*Repeat Chorus).

Copyright © 2017 Stephanie Carfrae. All Rights Reserved.

*Hope this has made you feel uplifted! Like you should.*

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 11 January 2017

Car wash!

I've been feeling uneasy this week. And it's been my own stupid fault - I take full responsibility for it.

I was out with a friend on Sunday and we had had lunch when he decided to put his car through a car wash. I'd never been in a car wash before I felt invigorated!

I sat there and felt like my mind had had its own wash! I felt all my negative thoughts disappear so it was really beneficial for me. It was as if a weight had been lifted. It was a great day and really helped me to process and think straight.

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 4 January 2017

Change!

Happy new year!
I've had a haircut so I feel more like me now! No more stragley ends! It's more manageable for me now. It is great to feel the wind on the back of my neck again!

Changes come in all shapes and sizes and even a simple change like mine can make you feel more in control of your life.
2017 is going to be an amazing year for me. I can feel it.

Steph

XxX