Wednesday, 23 November 2016

I Lost Myself

When things are happening it's good to keep momentum up.

Having hobbies is a great start.

Things you enjoy doing for the sake of doing them.

Lyrics were a great one for me, and I felt I was being heard, even though those lyrics hardly ever left my room! They're great to look back at in moments of need.

I think I have lost the habit of doing this recently. I think I've become so consumed with what is going on in my life, or the lack of it, that I've forgotten who I was!

This isn't healthy. Right now, I am trying to regain the person I am.

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 16 November 2016

Pendulum Poem.

Pendulum.
Always moving.
It's awe-inspiring.
Time keeps going.
Can't slow it down.
It can be harsh.
The feeling that you are missing out.
Learn a lot.
Time keeper.
Time keeps going.
No matter what is going on in your life.

I hope the poem here has made you think and believe that your life, no matter what stage you're at, is good. At least we are not pendulums. At least we get to rest etc. If you have any stories of when you have felt Pendulum-esque please do get in contact.

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 9 November 2016

'A Little Bit In Love' Book Review

I have just finished 'A Little Bit In Love' by Susan Fletcher which is basically Eponine's story from Les Miserables. I'd wanted to find out what had Carrie Hope Fletcher so enthralled to play this particular character on stage. And now I do understand Eponine's story I can understand it. In essence, her story is the main one in Les Miserables. Les Miserables stands for The Miserable Ones.

The book is truly profound and it takes you through a spectrum of emotions. I cannot recommend it highly enough. I didn't know the story at all when I first saw the film, so it didn't affect me. But then watching it after reading 'A Little Bit In Love' I was an emotional wreck! I finished the book in four days. The chapters were nice and short and you really got a feel for Eponine's struggle through them. I just had to watch the film after reading it and I think anyone else would had they had the film to hand. The film made a whole lot more sense to me after having read it.

I feel for Eponine in the two personal wars she is fighting and the actual war she finds herself facing, one is the war to be kind in a merciless world and also the war of her heart, to give him up because you want his happiness more than your own. A beautifully written work. I'm so glad I picked it up! I now understand a story that I'd been reluctant to learn.

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 2 November 2016

About how I feel and My List!

My life takes a lot of effort. People don’t realise that I wake up really early in order to get ready for the day ahead. I like waking up in the dark because the day is still unfolding but it does get boring.

Actually, I’ve been told that I’m not under-achieving in life.

Life is hard for everyone at the minute and I am no exception.

 It’s just so hard because I don’t really fall under a category. I can use my mind. There’s nothing wrong with that.

I’m a wheelchair user so have functional mobility problems but that’s it.

I love to read. In fact I am part of a book group which meets up every month to discuss whatever book we have chosen.

A good friend of mine reminded me of my optimistic nature when I reached my lowest ebb earlier this week. That really helped. It reminded me that I am a positive person and that this feeling of despondency is temporary and won’t last.

I need changes to occur to keep my optimism up. I’m a bit flummoxed by aall the changes that are going on around my life right now.

I feel this is a good point in which to share with you My List! It is a personal list of things which I am proud of totalling up at 14. This was a list I wrote before my 21st birthday so all these things were done before I was 21!

1.       Winning ‘secret’ history comp.

2.       Having ‘Written In The Stars’ published

3.       Singing ‘You In My Shoes’ at Open Mic Night

4.       Having a True Story published in Shout!

5.       Having poems published

6.       Having a short story published

7.       Graduating

8.       Having ‘Because’ recorded as a demo.

9.       Winning the lyric comp with Disney

10.   Writing the happiness blog

11.   Writing my own blog

12.   Winning poetry award

13.   Handing my lyrics to Danny Jones/CD to Tom Fletcher

14.   Getting ‘Wish I Could’ demo recorded.