Wednesday, 11 April 2018

Guide Star by Joy Ellis Book Review

It's not so often that a book gets to me - but this one did. I could relate so closely with the characters - it was marvellous!!

'Stella won't give up, but she doesn't know how to go on. 

Stella North, a rising star in the police, has her life torn apart by a gunman's bullets. She has often faced danger, but these injuries mean she must give up the job she loves. Her grandmother Beth is her rock. And Beth is no ordinary woman. At seventy, she runs marathons and has a past that Stella knows very little about. 

Beth calls in her friend Michael to help with Stella's recovery. But this man means a lot more to Beth than she reveals. And Stella's ex-husband Edward and old police partner Robbie want to help, but Stella puts up emotional barriers, and they have problems of their own. Her old friends from her days of Urbex (exploring old abandoned buildings) offer a glimmer of hope for the future.' 

I was blown away by how much you get involved with these characters whilst reading. It was really emotional. I loved the character of Jackhammer and I can totally see where he's coming from and why he did what he did. It was a real rollercoaster of a book and not to be missed.

It's a really interesting idea - how to get enjoyment out of life when you've lost so much encircled with other people's lives and worries going on too.

Such strong characters and her style was just lovely to read.

10/10 in my book!

Thank you for reading!



Tuesday, 3 April 2018

Laughter Yoga

I tried laughter yoga last week!

It was really fun and so beneficial.

Do you know how many muscles laughing helps?

At least 30!

It helps relieve tension and it's good for you!

It was put on by Disability Initiative where I still go twice a week.

We had a lovely instructor. 

That was one of the tasks.

We basically had to keep saying 'ho ho ha ha!' until we cracked up.

It helps to do it in a group or even just with a partner, but say you're on your own.

That does get a little funny after you repeat it so many times!

When you pretend you're a Father Christmas practising it gets funny!

And then we listened to some laughter off youtube which just set us off again.

Hope this has helped and hey, sometimes you just need to laugh - it's like a bee buzzing inside of you - I can guarantee you'll feel better when it's out. Sometimes you just need to laugh at the ridiculousness of life!



Tuesday, 27 March 2018

Make life WORK for you!

Sometimes I forget that people don't live inside my head.

I'll make a comment about something and then have to retrace what I was, in fact, making the point about.

Other people think seldom about you; they are concerned with their own affairs.

Never stop being you for someone else.

Don't stop doing what you're doing in every day life.

It's got you this far! And if a change is necessary let it be gradual.

You can't suddenly become a pro at anything without working up to it with practise.

The best in the world had to start somewhere.

They were once beginners too.

As they say in Harry Potter 'Every great wizard in history has started out as nothing more than what we are now. Students. If they can do it, why not us?'

I know that that is in a slightly different context, but the point is, the greats had to start somewhere and as Harry rightfully points out, what is stopping us from being great?

It's often us who stand in our own way, thinking we're not good enough or we don't deserve it.

You have to be able to take a step back at times, remember what you want in life and go for it.

Nothing is going to happen if you just stay in bed dreaming about it.

You have to make it happen for yourself.

Depending on others will let you down in the end.

I have to depend on people a whole lot in my life, it's more out of necessity than want. But I make the best of it because this is the only life I'm in, the only life I know.

And that's with getting transport to work, and Disability Initiative mostly.

I rely on my mum to get me dressed in the mornings and that is quite a heavy burden but she never makes it feel like that. I get up, turn the radio on, and then I'll get in the shower or whatever.

We never do things without music.

Except reading!

As you know I am an avid book lover and won't go anywhere without my book, there are sometimes pauses in life (long queues, waiting in doctors surgeries etc.) where having a book can be so worthwhile!



Tuesday, 6 March 2018


I don't care what I'm gonna lose
I don't care what I gotta prove
Now matters
Now is the only time we have
This moment wanna make it last
Now is the time to stand

Don't give in to time wasters
Be the game changer
Cos there are lots of things in this life
But how you ever meant to see the light?
If you keep hiding away
Under a rock is where you'll stay
So come out of the shadows
Cos now is the time you know
(Repeat Chorus)
Now is the time that counts
Don't let anything no no one bring you down
Cos you deserve much better than this and learn
Make a change when you don't where to turn
It might change perception
And it may not but you'll have the lesson
So be completely who you are
Cos you're a guiding star
(Repeat Chorus)
Now is what matters
Do something to make your future brighter
Cos if not now then when?
If you don't know phone a friend
And they'll say
Now is the time to act
Cos now is the time we have.

© 2018 S. Carfrae

This is a lyric which I just finished. But it talks about this moment that we all have. Now. If you want to make a change then go for it now. Don't think that can wait. If you can do something about it, do it now before it's too late. Not that it necessarily will be, but wouldn't you rather have done it than be wondering what if?



Wednesday, 28 February 2018

Taking Things For Granted Curb

Sorry I've been away for so long! I'm a nightmare, honestly . . .

I am aware that I take things for granted. I always believe everything will carry on as before - just as the day before. When I sit down and think about it - this really scares me. Am I really so small that it's going to take something drastic to change my way of thinking?

I do acknowledge that I should take some time out every day to appreciate even the simple things I take for granted every day - like having a warm home & bed, having food & water on hand any time I want.

Then there are the bigger things I take for granted like being healthy (most of the time) and having a loving, close family who take care of me and most importantly love me unconditionally.

So I am going to take a few minutes out of every day to think about everything I take for granted and write them down so I can remember. Then I hope to be more grateful for what I have.

When nothing is going on in your life - I think it's easy to feel like this. If it's not happening now - you are not busy - it's very easy to get caught in a whirlwind of why does this always happen to me? Just remember the world is getting ready for your arrival. It sometimes takes a long time and you're held up at the gate.

Take my analogy. Life is like an airport. It can take so long to get through security that you think it's never going to happen. The best bit is you get to shop at duty free! It can be the never-ending airport and the great thing is all of the gates are things that have happened in your life - personal victories that have meant something to you.

Just like - I made a list of things I was proud of by the time I turned 21 - now they'll mean nothing to any one else but they meant something to me.

I hope to go back to  posting weekly - perhaps on a Monday or Tuesday? Wish me luck with that,



Tuesday, 23 January 2018

Hello 2018!

Hey I apologise that I'm writing this 23 days into 2018! I've had the flu and stuff has been happening but I'm here now!

So happy 2018! I hope this will be a good year for you.

It's Ok to be in the middle. Most people are. 

I used to believe that people who knew what they wanted to do with their lives were the game makers of life. But then I realised that life was unpredictable for them too. 

By in the middle I mean unknowing about the future. 

Like not having a plan. 

It's a good idea to have a plan for most things but don't ever forget that one can't control everything. 

There will always be something changing. 

Constantly changing. 

You have to make the best of the situation you find yourself in. 



Wednesday, 20 December 2017

'Sky' & Merry Christmas!

Now, first off let me apologise for the lack of Motivational Monday's lately. They will be running again in the New Year, I hope you can bear with me!

Here is a short piece of writing I'm working on called 'Sky' and I hope you enjoy it.

'Now. Now. Now!' Tabitha cried in delight.
'Oh you win Tab,' Tabitha's older brother Thomas replied.
She'd been bugging him all day to see the fireworks.
'But if they go into the sky, then where do they go?' It had been hard for Tab to understand. She's only little, was the excuse Thomas gave. But it was a real problem to Tab's mind. They can't just go anywhere, she supposed. She wondered if there was a big net set up for these occasions to catch the 'dead' fireworks in. She guessed there must be.
Thomas took her hand and walked her over to the park. He was wearing gloves, a scarf and his big black jacket to keep the winds at bay. He kept looking up as if expecting something so Tab did too. Then there was a count down. '5...4...3...2....1!'
The sounds of the fireworks ripped into the air. There were loud bangs, a few low teaser sparklers and some that just coloured the air without sound at all. 'But where do they go? After all this, where do the fireworks go?' Tab asked loudly, still unable to wrap her head around the idea.
'They're magic. And the fact that we walk around all day outside or inside means we share that magic! So just be sure you're doing what you should be and I'm sure the magic from the fireworks will keep working!' Mr Bayliss told Tab. Mr Bayliss was Thomas's teacher from school.

Have an amazing Christmas and a really good start to 2018! Wow, see you there!