Wednesday, 4 October 2017


I'm beginning to make plans for the future again.

 For a while, I was off the map - I had no idea where my direction was going!

Although I still don't, I have a brighter premonition now.

Don't worry, there's nothing anyone could have done for me, it was something I had to find on my own.

And now I feel more ready for whatever is coming my way.

I'm feeling more excited about possible prospects in my future. 



Wednesday, 27 September 2017


The thing I've found about ideas is that writing them down is so beneficial.

Actually having them down on paper instead of trapped in you r head is so freeing.

I'd had an idea for a story for quite a while and I kept thinking about it but not actually writing it.

I am proud of myself today because I started writing it.

It's still preliminary and I don't know where it will lead in story terms but I am pretty excited by it.

Anything is possible.

I was sick of writing notes for the story.

Let's get down to writing it.

But I was scared.

I was thinking this was a massive idea.

I took a deep breath today, got my notes out and started writing.

Now I have a lot more space in my mind for other probably useless things that I'll pick up.

Thank you for reading



Wednesday, 20 September 2017

I've been thinking...

My life has been in disarray for quite a while and I don't know what I want from life anymore. I've always stuck to I want to help people. But in what way I've yet to discover. It's infuriating. I've always been scared of big ideas. But now I'm finding the power to let go and just write them as they are in my mind. Don't ever be afraid of an idea, no matter how big it is. And even if you think you can't accomplish it, just try because you never know. I'm going to tell myself this daily and see how I go. Ideas are there to be taken, and you've got to take them while you can.

I need to focus my life again. I don't know where to begin though. I love writing. I need to get that back in my life, make time for it. I've been quite literally dwindling from one thing to another. And I want to get back to writing lyrics too. I haven't been setting aside time to write anything and don't get me wrong, it's been lovely to read and lose myself in the characters but the book I'm reading right now is really hard hitting and I feel like I need a break. A way to re-find myself anyway. I think I lost myself somewhere and it's time to get back to being me.

I hope this rambling makes sense. I need to make this happen. For me.



Wednesday, 6 September 2017

The Girl Before by JG Delanely - Book Review

The Girl Before is an utterly stunning debut by this author.

Enter the world of One Folgate Street and discover perfection...but can you pay the price? 

Jane stumbles on the rental opportunity of a life-time: the chance to live in the ultras minimalist house designed by an enigmatic architect, on the condition that she abides by a long list of exacting rules. After moving in, she discovers that a previous tentant, Emma, met a mysterious death there - and starts to wonder if her own story will be a re-run of the girl before. As twist after twist catches the reader off guard, Emma's past and Jane's present become inexorably entwined in this tense, page-turning portrayal of a psychological obsession.

It was an absolute compulsive read. It is phenomenally written. I would highly recommend this book if you like a bit of a thriller. It does that job superbly!!



Wednesday, 30 August 2017


Last week I went gliding!

 It honestly felt surreal.

To be flying through the air on nothing but wind power honestly felt strange!

 I honestly thought it would be quite bumpy, however I had a very excellent pilot in the seat behind me who did all the manoeuvring onto air currents to keep us in the air.

The warmer the air the longer we had up there.

I was first in the glider so didn't know what to expect!

I was strapped into a parachute and moments later we took off.

And when you go up it's at speed.

It's almost vertical the way you take off.

We were attached to a winch which makes a loud bang as you are released from it.

And then you are coming back down gently and  slowly.

Honestly to see London like that was amazing.

It was a Kent air field. Kenley.

I was there with a charity called Sportability. Sportability ( ) is such a good charity.

Their credo is:  To take the ‘dis’ out of disability; focus on ability; inspiring the thought, “If I can do this, what else can I achieve?” 

It was my first time at an event of theirs and I hope to be doing many more in the future. 

Not to mention all the fantastic people I met! 



Wednesday, 23 August 2017

How You See...

'What's a weed to one person might be a beautiful flower to another.' (The Trouble With Goats And Sheep, Joanna Cannon.)

I love the way writers use plants to signify the troubles in society.

As 'A rose by any other name would smell as sweet' by William Shakespeare also symbolises.

It's about how we look at something, as later demonstrated in the speech by the character of Eric Lamb in The Trouble With Goats And Sheep by Joanna Cannon.

How you see something can be completely different to how someone else sees it.

How do you know the shade of the sky through someone else's eyes?

You don't.

You're just trusting that they see what you do because that's the way it is.

It's never certain.

And thankfully, we are all different.

Someone may come and see something through a whole new way that someone else has never considered before.

So while it may seem like the most practical thing in the world never be afraid to suggest something if you see someone going through a hardship.

We often overlook the most obvious things because we are looking for meaning, to save time or both.



Wednesday, 16 August 2017


'Lights fizz and tick, and aquariums of people look out into the night.'

This is a quote from 'The Trouble With Goats And Sheep' by Joanna Cannon.

I think it's a lovely expression. Everything that happens to someone has to go through their perspective.

Aquariums of lives.

Everybody has things going on so can only view things from their aquarium. Or their perspective.

I love finding analogies that you can imagine and see.

People don't view everything in the same way. It's through their aquarium.

Everyonesd has issues going on under the surface or worries that paint their world a particular shade.

That makes you human.