Wednesday, 1 February 2017

Brazen

I have started writing again! I'd just gotten so busy with work and trying to manage everything else in my life, that I just had no time left over. Creative writing that is. I do miss the time I used to be able to write article after article for a happiness blog which I used to) and write something inspirational (?) on here and still write creatively. Now I'm able to write creatively again, I feel hopeful that I can get back to writing how I used to. I also remembered something I learnt at uni. That 5 word sentences (or less) pack more of a punch. So, here we go my probably sixth attempt at trying to write this one scene called 'Brazen':

'I can't believe you,' he hissed as she held the knife over his defenceless body.
'Well, you'd better start!' she yelled back at him. How had it come to this? One second. That's all it would take.
'Get up!' she kicked his motionless legs. 'Tell me I'm crazy, tell me I'm insane!' she demanded in a voice that wasn't her own. It was much fiercer, more brazen. She didn't believe herself capable. 'Tell me anything,' she pleaded as tears stung her eyes.

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 25 January 2017

Yes You Are

V1:
Keep on shining like a star
Everyone's gonna know who you are
Cos you never gave up
When the going got tough
Keep on lighting up the dark

Chorus:
Cos you are yes you are incredible
Cos you are yes you are so beautiful
Don't you ever stop believing it's true
Cos you are yes you are amazing you

V2:
Keep on plugging away at life
Amaze people before their eyes
Cos you never gave in
When against the world you were struggling
I'm just praying that you realise
(Repeat Chorus)
M8:
Cos you are don't try to deny
The truth it's written in your eyes
You are worth so much
Don't just give it away for another's touch
Cos you are worth so much more
And you're so God damn beautiful
*Repeat Chorus).

Copyright © 2017 Stephanie Carfrae. All Rights Reserved.

*Hope this has made you feel uplifted! Like you should.*

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 11 January 2017

Car wash!

I've been feeling uneasy this week. And it's been my own stupid fault - I take full responsibility for it.

I was out with a friend on Sunday and we had had lunch when he decided to put his car through a car wash. I'd never been in a car wash before I felt invigorated!

I sat there and felt like my mind had had its own wash! I felt all my negative thoughts disappear so it was really beneficial for me. It was as if a weight had been lifted. It was a great day and really helped me to process and think straight.

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 4 January 2017

Change!

Happy new year!
I've had a haircut so I feel more like me now! No more stragley ends! It's more manageable for me now. It is great to feel the wind on the back of my neck again!

Changes come in all shapes and sizes and even a simple change like mine can make you feel more in control of your life.
2017 is going to be an amazing year for me. I can feel it.

Steph

XxX

Saturday, 31 December 2016

Happy New Year!

I hope this is a really fabulous year for you
Christmas was amazing as always, I hope yours was good too.
I got a load of books which means I'll have a very readicillious year!

I hope this year is incredible for you
You deserve it to be
Always remember you get to decide how you feel
And if you don't like how you feel change it
Even a little change can have a massive effect

Steph

XxX

Wednesday, 21 December 2016

Emotions

This is a standalone I've wanted to publish on here for quite a while but was lost in my piles of papers! Anyway I wrote this when I was 16 and it has never really left me. I hope you enjoy it.

Sarah and Danny had been friends for a long time. They were really close. One night they ended up watching a romantic film with Kieren and his girlfriend. At the end of the film Kieren and his girlfriend start making out and leave Danny and Sarah sitting there uncomfortably. They glance at each other -  but neither of them can tell what's on each other's minds. Danny's palms begin to sweat - he can't bear this silence. 'So yeah, we're going to head off!' he exclaimed as he got up and walked to the door. Sarah got up too and departed throug..h the same door. Danny was waiting outside in the hall for her. 'You'd better take this!' he says slipping off his jacket. It is thrashing with rain outside.
'Are you sure you'll be OK?' Saran asks. Danny laughs.
'Hey am I a man or a mouse?' he told her with a cheeky grin.
'OK as long as you're sure!' Sarah exclaims draping his jacket over her shoulders. She lifts up the hood on his jacket and prepares to open the door. Danny just looks at her. She looks so cute with that hood pulled up, wearing a jacket that's probably a few sizes too big for her. She giggles and he turns his attention to the rain.
'Right, here we go!' Danny laughs as he opens the door and dashes outside. He waits in the rain for Sarah to catch up with him. When she catches up, he says goodbye. 'Bye darling, see you tomorrow,' and scurries into his house. She watches him enter his house and then bursts into tears. He didn't know he wouldn't dee her tomorrow. She wonders if he's been into his bedroom yet and seen the note waiting on his bedside cabinet.
Tonight had broken her heart. Especially watching the film and not being able to curl her fingers over his. It's as if he'd known and he just wanted to break it some more. He had been such a sweetheart tonight. Why did he want to break her heart? The note on his bedside cabinet reveals the truth of her feelings towards him. That yes, she would die for him and that yes, he makes her life complete. But what makes her think he'd even care? Never in a million years. She doesn't know why she did it, she just had to get the words out somehow. So she wrote him a letter, hoping he would try to make her stop, all the while knowing he never would.
She's getting soaked standing in the rain, even though she was wearing Danny's jacket. She didn't even know if it was her teardrops or the rainfall making her face wet anymore. She stands there motionlessly waiting for something. She soon realises than it won't come and so goes up to Danny's door. She is tempted to knock on the door and get one last hug but she knows what she must do. She slowly removes the jacket, folds it and put it on Danny's doorstep. She walks back to her house totally exposed to the rain but she doesn't care. She unlocks her door and grabs the bags she packed earlier. She takes one last look at her house - in its bare state. She weeps a little as she makes her way to the train station.
Every torch that's shone around her she looks up hopefully. But it's not him. She doubts he's even read it yet. And she bets he won't care when he does. Yes, he's losing a close friend but that wouldn't mean much to him. He has other friends anyway.
She loved him all her life and isn't about to stop, but she thinks if she put some distance between herself and he, she might finally be able to move on. The train comes and as she boards she whispers 'My heart will always be with you.' When the train starts to move, she gives up any hope that he would come and tell her she was being silly. She looks out as the train departs the station and for a brief moment catches a glimpse of his face but it's only because he was on her mind surely?

Thank you for reading

Steph

XxX


Wednesday, 14 December 2016

Yet

I honestly feel like I'm a fledgling bird, waiting to be freed and I'm at the point where things are not happening fast enough if at all. I am a fledgling bird without a sky at the moment. It feels like I'm fledgling and I just want to be free but someone or something is always clipping my wings. I feel ready to go, like I'm on the runway but everywhere I turn says delay delay delay. I just want to get my life started! 

It just hasn't been my time YET. 

Yet is one of my magic words because it can stand for so much. 

I don't know what love feels like, because I haven't been in it yet. 

That makes me feel better. Just adding the word 'yet' to any emotion or place in the world that you want to get to. I'm not there yet but I have the potential to be. 

Steph

XxX