Wednesday, 7 December 2016

It's December!

Where has this year gone? Time is just passing way too fast!

I caught a cold this time last week so apologies for not uploading! I was feeling down on Monday, so to make myself feel more like me I took a look in my feel-better box!

It's just a box of memories. It's bigger than a shoebox but a shoebox can work just as well. I have messages from old friends in there that just spur me on. Sometimes I can't believe that I had the nerve to ask people what I did but looking back they were great times. I still can't believe the faith that most of my friends seemed to have in me!

I sent an email out when I was 16 asking people what they thought of: who I was, who I am now and who I will be.

I would never be as brave as to ask that now! I tend to just take every day as it comes and see every obstacle as an opportunity.

I got some amazing responses and I love and treasure them in my feel-good box! I hope you are inspired to make your own box and then when you're down you can take it out and feel better. You don't have to be as brazen as I was at 16! It can be anything you like, perhaps a colour perhaps a picture perhaps words.



Wednesday, 23 November 2016

I Lost Myself

When things are happening it's good to keep momentum up.

Having hobbies is a great start.

Things you enjoy doing for the sake of doing them.

Lyrics were a great one for me, and I felt I was being heard, even though those lyrics hardly ever left my room! They're great to look back at in moments of need.

I think I have lost the habit of doing this recently. I think I've become so consumed with what is going on in my life, or the lack of it, that I've forgotten who I was!

This isn't healthy. Right now, I am trying to regain the person I am.



Wednesday, 16 November 2016

Pendulum Poem.

Always moving.
It's awe-inspiring.
Time keeps going.
Can't slow it down.
It can be harsh.
The feeling that you are missing out.
Learn a lot.
Time keeper.
Time keeps going.
No matter what is going on in your life.

I hope the poem here has made you think and believe that your life, no matter what stage you're at, is good. At least we are not pendulums. At least we get to rest etc. If you have any stories of when you have felt Pendulum-esque please do get in contact.



Wednesday, 9 November 2016

'A Little Bit In Love' Book Review

I have just finished 'A Little Bit In Love' by Susan Fletcher which is basically Eponine's story from Les Miserables. I'd wanted to find out what had Carrie Hope Fletcher so enthralled to play this particular character on stage. And now I do understand Eponine's story I can understand it. In essence, her story is the main one in Les Miserables. Les Miserables stands for The Miserable Ones.

The book is truly profound and it takes you through a spectrum of emotions. I cannot recommend it highly enough. I didn't know the story at all when I first saw the film, so it didn't affect me. But then watching it after reading 'A Little Bit In Love' I was an emotional wreck! I finished the book in four days. The chapters were nice and short and you really got a feel for Eponine's struggle through them. I just had to watch the film after reading it and I think anyone else would had they had the film to hand. The film made a whole lot more sense to me after having read it.

I feel for Eponine in the two personal wars she is fighting and the actual war she finds herself facing, one is the war to be kind in a merciless world and also the war of her heart, to give him up because you want his happiness more than your own. A beautifully written work. I'm so glad I picked it up! I now understand a story that I'd been reluctant to learn.



Wednesday, 2 November 2016

About how I feel and My List!

My life takes a lot of effort. People don’t realise that I wake up really early in order to get ready for the day ahead. I like waking up in the dark because the day is still unfolding but it does get boring.

Actually, I’ve been told that I’m not under-achieving in life.

Life is hard for everyone at the minute and I am no exception.

 It’s just so hard because I don’t really fall under a category. I can use my mind. There’s nothing wrong with that.

I’m a wheelchair user so have functional mobility problems but that’s it.

I love to read. In fact I am part of a book group which meets up every month to discuss whatever book we have chosen.

A good friend of mine reminded me of my optimistic nature when I reached my lowest ebb earlier this week. That really helped. It reminded me that I am a positive person and that this feeling of despondency is temporary and won’t last.

I need changes to occur to keep my optimism up. I’m a bit flummoxed by aall the changes that are going on around my life right now.

I feel this is a good point in which to share with you My List! It is a personal list of things which I am proud of totalling up at 14. This was a list I wrote before my 21st birthday so all these things were done before I was 21!

1.       Winning ‘secret’ history comp.

2.       Having ‘Written In The Stars’ published

3.       Singing ‘You In My Shoes’ at Open Mic Night

4.       Having a True Story published in Shout!

5.       Having poems published

6.       Having a short story published

7.       Graduating

8.       Having ‘Because’ recorded as a demo.

9.       Winning the lyric comp with Disney

10.   Writing the happiness blog

11.   Writing my own blog

12.   Winning poetry award

13.   Handing my lyrics to Danny Jones/CD to Tom Fletcher

14.   Getting ‘Wish I Could’ demo recorded.

Wednesday, 26 October 2016

Things Don't Happen By Chance!

‘See obstacles as opportunities.’ I try to do this. When something goes wrong, as often happens, you are led down a different road to the one you would’ve taken had it gone right.

Was this the road you were destined to go on?

I don’t know as I don’t know your situation.

But if you try to make the best of it you are putting positive energy into the world rather than negative.

Some things aren’t meant to go right.

Maybe lessons need to be learnt or something.

Whatever the reason, there is a purpose behind everything that happens to you in life, whether that’s to lead you down a different road, to a new place or anything, it is for the best.

Things don’t happen by chance there is always a reason.

 It may be deeper than you imagined.

Or it could be just a thinly veiled, on the surface reason.

You have to be willing to change, make it work for you whatever it is.

For instance, at my interview I had to sell myself. Now anyone that knows me, knows I'm very comfortable hiding in my shell and am not outspoken about my achievements, of which there have been many. Some that in fact, I had forgotten about until the interview came into light. I might in fact share a list of achievements I compiled in the 0 - 21 ages if you like? This was for me and really makes me feel better about myself!

I felt I said all that I could in my interview - had to remember a lot of stuff - and just wasn't needed in that particular role. But that's ok. Best way to grow - is to learn and move on.

Do not feel bad. Like something that you did warrented things to go wrong. Because things often mess up naturally. And it’s us who deal with what’s leftover.

Friday, 21 October 2016


I was unsuccessful in getting the job as a library assistant.

I am not disappointed as this was my very first interview!!

The way I look at it is that they're the ones that are missing out.